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An irreplaceable time

I recently meet only one of my web friends in Tales Weaver, Shall. I usually meet her after 10 p.m. and I often talk to her about what we experienced in the day. She usually go to an area to get a rare item that she wants, however, it basically takes much time to get. Therefore she sometimes gets nervous or sad. Then I encourage and help her and am happy when I see her smile or positive respondent.

She usually seems to be active and pure like a wild cat, but sometimes lonely like a rabbit. I often see such change of her impressions, so I like her and feel like hug her tightly, but I can't because the world is different from the real. Some people think that the relationship seems to be something wrong, but other people do not do so.

I am almost sure that each feeling is the same. When I met her 2 days ago, she seemed to be very happy to meet me; actually she said 'I missed you…'. As it has been a little bit long time since the last time, we felt happy, could not talk well because of an embarrassment and had a sweet and good time.

Before going to bed, I could not bare to say 'I like you' because I want to tell my mind from the heart. I said that and she replied, '…Me, too. ///'. She was so shy that she said so, but I was very happy. I am blessed by her, so next is my turn. I shall bless her.

'I hope I am your big happiness.'

A pure girl

I had thought that women knew some knowledge about a little X-rated words until Shall asked me about such words. I also asked her whether she really did know or not. She said, 'No' and the answer surprised me. In my opinion, women who are over 16 years old learned such words by their friends or media(TV, magazines, comics etc), but it was destroyed by her word.
I was unable to make a decision to tell her. She said, 'I follow your directions.'.
Is it good for her to know these?
Finally, I told one of them to her. It was a little abnormal, however, easy to explain what it was to her.
She was very embarrassed to hear that.^^;
She felt some regrets.--;
If she is confused or in trouble now, I want to support her fully. I have a duty and responsibility to do so because I have told her the word.

Erotic talking

Last night, a girl member of my club came. She is another character who is used by the player. It is almost national that a player has more than 2 characters and commands one of them on the video game. The name is Shall. She is always kidding me and I sometimes do similar things as she does to me.

When she came into the game, I took a bath. I wrote a message to people who have something to do to me; 'I'm taking a bath now'. When I returned in front of my PC and looked at the moniter, Shall was next to my character and wrote a message; 'I'm taking a bath with Defau (my character)♪'. I could not help laughing. Her jokes make me ashamed.
I said hello and chatted with her, but I felt she was a little strange. I asked her some questions and I found she ate liqueur chocolates. So, she was a little drunk. I worried about her, but she was much fine. Moreover, what she said was very dangerous for me because it was daring.
'Hug me♪', 'Hold me tightly♪', 'Hey, Fau(with DeFAU). Where do you touch?' and so on.

What should I do then? I understand that it has no special meaning because the world is the fiction, the fantasy world. They are just her kiddings.

However, I am a MAN! My body heats up when I look and listen to such words.

So, I also got a little daring and chatted with her. The contents were too erotic to write.--;
About an hour passed, she got sober and noticed what she said was very daring and erotic.

I thought that drunk people was very funny but sometimes scary.

A friend left from my club to his home club.

My club consists of over 15 people and is like a family. The life made us happy and gave irreplaceable memories, but a sad news occerd 2 days ago.

One of the members asked me to remove from the member. According to his opinion, he had other things to do and this happy life sometimes caused him something heavy. He said if he had been here a little longer, he might brake the club atmosphere in pieces. I was sure that he really sufferd from his bad feelings. Then, I had no idea what should I say to him, but I came up an idea in my mind that it was the time to leave here and take him breaktime. It was the better thing, I thought. The night came. He still seemed to be bad, however, one of my club member who liked him very much prepared a message to cheer him up. I was very moved. Everyone worried him and found the way to keep him be here.
But, he finally decided to leave and told me it by private chat system, so I told him to look at the message and understand her true feeling. After doing that, he talked to the member and asked her to go to bed. She did and he and I talked the last chat in this club each other. I thought he got a little better. Her feeling made him so. It was a very happy thing.


He left from here to his home club.


The next day, I was very nervous because I had to tell it to the other members. I considered what I should say again and again. I worried their respondences, especially the person who liked him. When I met her, I told it softly. As expected, she was very shocked. I talked her his opinion and encouraged her harder. She finally got calm and accepted the fact. I was really glad to see her smile again when I said to her that she could go, send e-mail, and invite PT whenever she wanted to meet him.

After that, she went to meet him and had a wonderful time. It was the adolescence.
I also went on a date with a girl. I am very happy too.^^

A tricky conversation

Last night, I played TW and met her, Shall. The attend club menbers were us, so it was a happy situation for me because we like each other. Through the interaction with her, she seemed to be a little clever and very pure. What she says is very open to misconstruction, so I sometimes am very embarrased and take a rib from her.
Later that, she apologized me for saying such insulting language. Then I said I didn't mind it because I didn't care such chatty language. She said,

"You are too gentle and honest.^^;___It's my fault, so you can get angry. You may as well get angry.><"

I thought it may well say so, but I did not have the feeling since I never had any reasons why I admonished her.

Am I too gentle and honest? I cannot make sure that I have these characters.
If she hopes me to change my personality, I might be so. However, it is very difficult for us to change their character soon.^^;

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Yesterday, I played an on-line network game. I have been playing the video game for a half of year. I met many virtual people and made friends with them.

Some people think it is not good to stay or settle in to the new world, but I don't think so. Actually, news programs say that serious climes and cases are occurred by young people and one of the reasons is by video games.It's like a stereotype. Such slanted views make them bad things.

I think it depends on the people. Even if it is the virtual world, as we talk and are familiar with some people, we can know them more. Fortunately, I could meet friendly and kind people and help each other. Then I finally decided to make my own club and get it more wonderful, peaceful, irreplaceable. I am very satisfied with the present result, but I am sure to make better club from now.

However, the members are in busy season now because they are preparing to enter university or high school. I am a little afraid of the maintenance of the club.
Of course I understand that the end comes in the future. I feel very sad to think it. However, if I want to continue such life, can I make sure that it is the better answer for everyone?
It is my frustration. The left time I have is about 1 and a half year.
May I able to find the best answer by the last day?


I want to meet Shall(Pi-no). Yesterday I waited her, but she didn't come. I can't help it because I did not know her schedule. She is also a preparatory student, so I think she is busy with her work. All I can help her is to cheer her up, to be beside her, to enjoy everything with all members.